It’s been almost 7 years since I did my first fertility treatment. After a couple of years of trying to get pregnant, we learned that we were headed down the fertility treatment path. I was completely healthy and fertile and was able to produce many eggs. I remember all the emotions of going through the fertility process. I remember the price tag! Oh! The price tag. It was a trial of love every time we would sign our names on the dotted line. I remember the pain. OH! The pain! I will never know what it feels like to have a natural pregnancy! Our baby making was very scientific. The shots were hard for this not very tolerant needle mama! There were so many emotions that would come with the fertility treatment. There was the emotional pain and the physical pain. And goodness sake it was so worth it.
So many people would ask me if I felt bitter about the fact that my baby making was so scientific. I pride myself on living a pretty holistic lifestyle. We eat all organic food and we prefer alternative medicine. My baby making was anything but natural. No, I do not feel bitter at all. I can’t tell you how wonderful it was for me to sit in the ultrasound room the day of my implantation. I watched the screen as a tiny little light drifted on the screen. The doctor said “that there was your embryo.” I got to see my children try to implant (and they both did). I got to see the blastocyst and my children’s cell divide as they became stronger day by day. I got to see the beauty of science in all its wonder. I feel blessed that someone one day decide to tinker with infertility. For them, I am forever grateful of the beautiful children I cuddle with each and every night. Two very strong and healthy boys.